i have no idea, no clue, seems that it is, everything i do, with no real resources, no-one to propel me, what a friend had said, i was sitting on a gold mine, but i am finding, i don’t know how to mine.
i work constantly, practically everyday, it is wearing me out something crazy – this along with severe depression and PTSD from a crazy war that nobody knows about, and that which i was submersed in, not only does anybody really know about it, not too many people at all, but there are fewer who even care.
i mean give a damned, like about people who were tormented and their lives destroyed, if i , or others give up, it does not matter at all. that is the way i am feeling right now!!! like being the prisoner of a war again and all the what i can’t do in front of me every long day, not a second passing, and all that is tried is a fail.
have i anything to offer? i believe so, and many tell me that i do too!!! i just can’t get to that place where i give that what i can offer, to be all of who i am potentialized (my made up word again – i feel like Bush without all the $$$ and power)
well, instead of a poem, i give U this, maybe it is why i am nobodies Valentine, for year!!! BLAGHHHH !!!!
still, in all of this, i really do hope love shall be triumphant!!!